I feel like crying. Why did life had to make me this way? The only thing I really want right now is to be dead. Is the only way to make all my problems go away. This heartache is killing me softly and everyday it gets more and more intense. It’s like God wants me to be always sad. Everything I DO IS WRONG I have spent my whole life making mistakes. I AM A MISTAKE. I feel it and my parents make me think I am a mistake. I am the only one in this house who DOESN’T HAVE A LIFE and that’s sad. I really need someone to share all this. I don’t know, everybody find the things that make them happy and I…I only find things that hurt me. I don’t know I…I just wanna die..go somewhere else where I won’t bother anybody, where I guess everything will be better. Please GOD why do you do this to me? What did I do to deserve all this pain? No one will ever answer…